Weigh in #1-My love hate relationship with The Biggest Loser

I love The Biggest Loser.  Tommy and I watch it religiously.  I think it's such a positive show that inspires people not just to loose weight but get healthy.  While many of these people are overweight I know many stick thin people that aren't healthy either.  Now more than ever it has inspired me to get back on track.  One of the main reasons I love TBL is Jillian Michaels.  I would love to have her as a trainer.  She's tough but gets the job done.  I have many of her work out videos and they work wonders (that's what I did right before my wedding to get in shape).  This week I began the 30 day shred again and BFBM-they are even harder than I remember.  When I was in shape I could do all three 30DS in a row..now I am spent at the end of the first one.  Whew!  Gotta take baby steps!  

Part of me also hates TBL too.  The logical person in me knows that these people are on a ranch where they are dedicating 24 hours a day 7 days a week to working out and eating healthy.  They have some of the BEST trainers helping them sculpt their body and shed the pounds.  Yet I still have this unrealistic thought in my head that after 2 weeks I will step on the scale and loose 10-20 lbs!!!  ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!  nope!  I can see how many people trying to loose weight get discouraged and maybe this is the bad thing about the show.  People's expectations are different after seeing these people melt down to nothing in a few months-something that takes someone in the real world years to do.  Now I know me loosing 10-20 lbs in two weeks is CRAAAZY but you can't HELP think of getting on that scale and seeing significant progress.

Here is what I did these past 2 weeks:
Began walking-I walked 5 out of the 7 days each week going between 2.5-3 miles each time.
I decided not to do the whole cold turkey on the diet thing just yet but since this past week was my shopping week I made sure to stock up on lots of healthy snacks and food and will start concentrating more on portion control which seems to be my problem.
I've also started using the Jillian Michaels DVD's again and plan to do them 2-3 times a week to start.  I had my 6 week check up on Thursday (yea I know 6 weeks already!) and wanted to wait to start the DVD's until I was officially cleared by Dr. Hajj so I've only done the work outs twice so far.  I felt pretty good the past two weeks although I was brought back to reality that I won't be able to do what I did pre-pregnancy just yet.  What was awful about the workouts wasn't that I was huffing and puffing but I was being strangled by these two giant orbs on my chest.  OMG-why do people spend thousands to have these things.  NOT WORTH IT!  As I was doing jumping jacks I had this image of me actually choking on these things!  Imagine Tommy's horror when he comes home from work to find me laying on the floor dead-death by boobies.  I had to tame these tatas by not one, not two, but three sports bras.  Grant it they are simply just pieces of cotton-I never really needed too much support before.  Not to mention I have this tummy that jiggles too.  It feels so weird and after doing a minute of jumping jacks and jump rope I have even more motivation to get rid of this!    I've also contemplated starting a food journal but I decided I will do that if I need to-often I have done this in the past and I do it for a few days and then it falls by the wayside so I am not going to bother this time (yet).  My biggest thing is that I don't want to diet-I just want to eat healthy and enjoy foods I love in moderation.  I have made some changes-fruit bars for ice cream, hummus and carrots for chips, and water and G2's for soda/iced tea.  But there are few things I won't sacrifice and those things are: butter (just maybe try to use less), eating birthday cake (if it's a birthday or holiday I am eating it), and chocolate.  Now that doesn't mean I will eat those things every day-but if I want it I will have it.  If I try to cut out everything I will just go crazy.  That's why diets do not work!    

This morning I stepped on the scale and to my horror I realized I am a HUGE idiot.  Ok so my scale goes like this:

160 ////.////|////.////180

So if you can see from my make shift scale the bold straight line is actually 170-the numbers go up in increments of 20.  So here's where I flubbed.  I was reading the straight line as 165...WRONG!  So reality hit me and made me realize I didn't loose 20 lbs I only lost 15!!!  So my starting weight was actually 170!  I felt like I gained a million lbs!  WTF.  Well I'm over it so...

Here is my progress:
Start: 165 170
Weigh in #1 May 10, 2011-  after 2 weeks: 169
Total weight lost: 16

I have decided to weigh in every two weeks since I think it will help me see a greater progress than weighing in every week and getting discouraged.  I was hoping for a 2 lb loss but I will take that lb. even though I feel like I've gained 4.  

See you in 2 weeks!