The waiting is the hardest part..

Well we begin the waiting game...even though my due date isn't until Thursday I am officially off of work and it's 8:03am and I already feel the guilt for sitting around waiting...I feel like I should be working and doing something productive.  Don't get me wrong, I have plans for my day which include more cleaning and organizing of the basement....but still I feel the guilt!  Everyone keeps telling me I should relax and enjoy the time before my life changes in one instant but I cannot justify sitting on the couch all day (although it has been nice just putting around this morning). Cleaning and organizing IS relaxing for me.  I mean it's my understanding that I am going to be so tired when the baby comes and it's not like you can stock up on sleep...so why rest now when I have the energy?  I can get organized and this will make life MUCH easier for me with the baby.  I think I will regret not being organized more than missing out on being lazy...No matter how much I sleep/rest now it's NOT going to help-you can't bank sleep hours...so that's my philosophy for not sitting on my arse.

The crazy thing is that I feel bad.  I feel bad for not feeling bad.  Forgive me if I seem annoyed by the "How are you feeling" and the "Are you in labor yet?" questions.  Let's chat about something else other than my baby bump and how I am feeling because truth be told I feel just fine!  Really!  No I am not miserable and no I don't sit around wallowing in my pain.  Part of me worries because I keep thinking:  "I AM supposed to be miserable right?  Isn't that a sign progress is being made?"  It's giving me a slight paranoia that I am not going to know if I am in labor.  And to that people keep telling me that I will KNOW.  OK OK...I am sure that's true but I just cannot help feeling bad for not feeling bad.  I mean if there are women out there that don't know they are pregnant (really c'mon) then there have to be people out there that don't know they are in labor right?  Maybe I should call TLC...we may have a great reality show on our hands.  When I expressed my concern to Tommy he joked that we won't wake up one morning to a baby in our bed.  This made me laugh picturing it and made me nervous becuase...holy crap what IF I have my baby in my bed.

I am sure you may think this is all silly but whatever.  I really should be grateful I am feeling so great.  I hope this means labor will be a walk in the park and that recovery is going to be a breeze!  OR maybe it's the calm before the storm.  WHATEVER it means I don't know...we will just have to wait and see!

Yesterday when I went for a walk I felt like I could break into a jog...and tried a bit until I realized that was probably stupid....but it also got me thinking...what if I am cooking an elephant?  Isn't their gestation period 22 months?  I cannot IMAGINE...as great as being pregnant has been (with the exception of that 1st trimester) I would never want to be pregnant for almost 2 years!  YIKES!  Baby elephants are stinking cute:

 BUT I am pretty sure it's a baby human in there and I just need to give it a few more days.  Clarence is probably enjoying his/her peace and quiet before he/she has to come out and deal with his/her parents.

So to answer your questions:  No, I am not in labor yet and I am feeling wonderful-Thanks for asking!