Fit Friday: Be an ATHLETE

I may have skipped one or two fit Fridays (I can't even remember right now) but life has been busy (fun busy!)  My goal was to have dropped another 5 lbs by the end of June.  I didn't quite hit that.  I am down 3. It's a loss and I will take it.

 

Not saying it's an excuse but the end of the month marked my last days at my job at TU so that meant lots of lunches out with co-workers so I celebrated a bit and I am not sorry I ate a piece of Reese's PB cup cheesecake from the Cheesecake Factory. 

 

BUT lately have been back on track and my goal for July is going to be 5 pounds again.  I have been starting to get some more exercise in which I think was needed to get over my hump.   I am trying to at least get in 3-4 walk-runs/workouts in a week and so far so good-even if some of them are with the kids in tow.

 

I don't know about anyone else but when I work out I tend to be a head case.  When I was running regularly I would often end my runs in tears (am I the only one!?)  I think, think, think-about everything!  This week when doing a 2 mile walk with Little Tommy I was doing just that.  I ran up a small hill while pushing him in his little car and just felt gross and thought to myself:  "I have never felt so un-athletic before in my life!"  The boobs, the butt, the stomach.  It's all there-moving.  I HATE IT. 

 

CRAP I used to be an athlete.  3 sport athlete in high school to Division I college athlete.  Even post college I kept in shape and even ran a half marathon!  NO JOKE right!?  Here I am now suddenly forgetting all of that-my body forgot it a long time ago.  It all went out the window the moment I became pregnant with Lilly.  In that moment I heard the voice of one of my lacrosse coaches say:  "REESE! Be an ATHLETE!"

 

It's going to take a while and I know I may not ever get back to my high school or college weight but ultimately I just want to FEEL like an athlete again.  I want to not feel horrible chasing my kids around.  I just want to have fun and not be self conscious about what my butt looks like.  I did a cartwheel the other day for the first time in like forever to show Lilly.  MAN if you want to feel old and frumpy go do one.  Holy heck.  I don't want to feel like that.  I don't want to miss out on fun things with my kids because I just don't feel comfortable.  I want to be an athlete again-ultimately that is my goal-no matter how much I weigh.