When we got there I was expecting to wait but we checked in and were taken back to the prep room almost immediately. While the procedure was the same it was so different. It seemed to go way easier and I was oddly enjoying the whole experience. This time I took it all in-instead of trying to block it out. I am not one to love things like this, but I watched everything playing out. Even the spinal experience was 'good' if I can call it that-I had a great anesthesiologist this time around and I barely felt a thing. Where with Lilly I had my eyes shut and barely looked around the OR, this time I took it all in. The buzzing around from the nurses and doctors was reassuring. My doctor was by my side and talked to me to take my mind off thinking about the big needle going into my spine. The tools they were going to use were all laid out perfectly and it just amazed me how everyone seemed so calm and happy and excited to bring my baby into the world. It made all the difference.
We were in the same OR room as we were when we had Lilly. OR #2 and again had the angel watching over us!
Once all was set-Tommy was able to come into the room and they started almost immediately. I could feel them and hear them working and within about 10-15 minutes they were delivering our son! (at this point we still hadn't decided on a name). I experienced some nausea and threw up a bit this time around. Weirdest feeling ever trying to throw up when you are numb from the armpits down. It was hard but it soon passed and I was able to focus on hearing his little cries for the first time.
At 8:12am our son was born into this world and he was perfect and I fell in love for the third time in my entire life. It's amazing how much your heart can fit! My first impression when seeing him was that he looked just like his big sister!
After he was out the doctor let me see him with the mirror-at first I wasn't sure if I wanted to look, but he angled it perfectly so all I could see was my son taking his first breaths. He was perfect. When they took him to weigh him and clean him up and I was being stitched back up I was able to use the mirror to see everything they were doing with the baby. It was wonderful and something I didn't get to do with Lilly. I cannot recall if I even had the option-if I had my guess is that I said no. The anesthesiology didn't give me a choice this time around and when I hesitated he insisted I look and I thank him for that. I couldn't be there by his side like Tommy but I was able to see it all! It was amazing.
He was self censoring!
The rest of the procedure took longer than I remembered with Lilly but we were back in recovery by 8:45ish (from what I remember) and I was able to hold my son for the first time and he nursed right away perfectly. Not sure if it was my experience or calmness that did it but I remember being so timid nursing with Lilly and I think that may be why she had some trouble. Either that or he's just a boob man ;)
I will never forget the feeling of holding my babies for the first time. I remember Lilly's like it was just yesterday and I will forever remember this moment as well. It is really something special.
He has the longest toes (and fingers!)
We were settled into our room by 10:30 and were able to bond with our little guy before having any visitors. This was necessary. Since Lilly was born after 12 we had visitors right away. While I certainly didn't mind in the least bit-having some time alone after was definitely very nice.
He was just precious-and at this point still didn't have a name. We took some time when we were alone to mull it over. We had 4 first names and had ruled out 2 by the time we reached the room. So it was between two. Just before our parents came to visit we had decided that this little guy was Thomas Everett Smith. It was perfect-our Little Tommy! We were able to share this news with our family before they left for the evening. Everyone was so happy!Turns out Lilly knew the name before us because my mom had said when people were asking what his name was she stated: "Tommy!". Too funny!
Nothing can prepare you for the feeling of love and joy when you bring your babies into the world. I know many moms, myself included, worry about how it's possible to love another child as much as your first but it is. Trust me. My heart has never felt so full. And my husband (Big Tommy now) is amazing and I loved him more the day Lilly was born and somehow I had room to love him even more seeing him with his son. The way he took care of both of us after surgery was amazing-any dads reading this you need to make sure you are there every second! You won't get those moment back!
Welcome to the world Little Tommy. We love you so so much and we are so proud to welcome you into our family. 3 became 4 and we couldn't be happier. You make our lives complete. And your big sister? She loves you so much! (more on this in a second post!).
Happy 'birth' day Little Tommy!
For comparison here is Tommy and his big sister when she was born:
I think they look a lot alike. You can definitely tell she was almost a whole pound more than he was though! I guess that's the difference 2 weeks makes!
For comparison here is Tommy and his big sister when she was born:
I think they look a lot alike. You can definitely tell she was almost a whole pound more than he was though! I guess that's the difference 2 weeks makes!
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